christmas!?

present for my father, dez '10

so it's here again
christmas.....
i dunno why i wanna give anything to my father, for he is not interested in anyhing that has got to do with me.
those days used to be the worst of the year for me.
it always reminds me of the person i miss and how he should be with me and he is not, but with someone else whoever, his family i think.
this year it'll be different.
well, i hope so, but i'm pretty sure.
christmas still sucks.
three days love, peace and harmony, when everybody secretly thinks: how sucky can anyone be!?
great fun, like every year.
let's barf.

by the way my new favorite word: sucky!