people

14/12/10 (dry)

"people" (wet), dispersionsfarbe, kaffeesatz auf canvas

tomorrow i'll take a better photo and put up some pics of the details.
just have to charge my camera, those were the last i been able to take...

yay, quotes!

10 min sketch, 11/12/10

„Sollten Ihnen meine Aussagen zu klar gewesen sein, dann müssen Sie mich missverstanden haben.“

alan greenspan 
passt wie die faust aufs auge heute, meine laune schwingt alle 10 min um.
von wütend zu weinerlich zu aufgeregt, wieder wütend,lustig, aktiv, jetzt gerade wieder wütend...
wie vielseitig ich heute bin...
 

sometimes there has to be annoying shit, too...

"Family", 6,4 x 8,9cm, 11/12/10

 i'm sorry for you mental vacuum, bitches!!

didn't know how bitchy even boys can be....
i thought i was old enough to not have to deal with such shit.
another friendship over, byebye my friend!

(charakter gehören nicht mir sondern irgendwem, wieder zeichnen mit vorgaben geübt)

exhausting

"the devil with the deep blue eyes", 08/12/10

 sometimes it's hard to bare.
at some days i'm so numb and feel nothing, i can take a knife cut into my body and still: nothing.
and some days i feel like overwhelming, not knowing how to handle my intense emotions, i feel so much, either negative or positive, always over the top.
like wanting to melt into the man i love.the feelng that you can't breathe from anger.
or love.
or happiness.
or fear...
it's exhausting sometimes.
well, actually it always is.
funny how knocked out you can feel at the end of the day, only from feeling.

had to do this for work,exercise with stencils

nov '10

'though i know i love you:
i'll be runnin', i know it ain't easy to be with me.
maybe that is actually the reason why i'm so scared?

still a lot of snow

"what r u lookin' for?", 28/11/10

life is so sweet with you in it.
since the day i know him everything is a little bit easier and better.
he makes it so easy to love him.
a great man.
...

snow

"birds & lollipops", nov '10

it is freezing cold and in the morning, after the third night i slept like 2 to 3 hours, i forgot to put my jacket on.
i was so confused, in my own world or whatever that i just forgot it!
bad mistake, i felt like the cold cutting into my skin whenever i was outside.
i gotta do something about this insomnia, this was okay when i was younger with no obligations, but it's getting exhausting.
and i need to get my school done, all this skipping classes can't go on like that.
even with good grades...

i miss the wolf.
i hope he comes over tonight.
didn't see him for almost two days, this is a lot for us.
i never thought i could talk like that...
i became one of those women i hate who can't be alone for a freakin' day.
disgusting!